u/Archimedes67

I am also diagnosed autistic. When I was really burnt out and suicidal, first showing signs of psychosis, the hallucinations were terrifying. I'm still in the proces s of healing, but the terrifying ones have definitely become less frequent and can easily be triggered by my environment. When left undisturbed in my own bubble, I can sometimes be the happiest with my hallucinations, as the characters I'm hyperfixated on are there for me like a friend or romantic partner. But they also hurt me sometimes for no reasopn, which causes me a lot of pain and sometimes distorts my initial impression of or love for them. I've never been in a relationship and only have one friend, whom I barely have contact with. Does anyone else share this experience?