18 months post stroke. In a sense, I got lucky. No paralysis or anything like that. Mine was all mental, but it did the job. I I sleep 18 or more hours a day. 1 to 2 hours of light activity is all I can handle before I have to rest. I fall asleep in the doctor's office. I fall asleep at work. I fall asleep in my vehicle if I'm parked for more than 5 minutes.
I feel like my IQ has been cut in half. I forget everything. Including how to talk much of the time. I'm constantly stammering over words that I can almost remember. I can barely do simple math now. Words and numbers are all just a random jumble in my head. I feel groggy and confused at all times. I get dizzy/lightheaded frequently. I fall a lot. Some days I don't even feel safe driving.
Loud noises or people yelling at me is like a lightning bolt to the brain. Sensory input makes me very aggressive and sets off panic attacks the likes of which I have never experienced before. I'm becoming afraid of people. Not specific people, just all of them.
I'm not even able to accomplish 15 hours of work a week at my job. I have no insurance. I've been turned down for disability. I'm going to end up homeless. Nobody seems to understand this. Either people don't believe me, or they just don't care.
Believe it or not I used to be pretty sharp. Now I'm just a blithering airbag. I'm not a suicide risk but I wish this shit would have killed me outright.