Quit weed a week ago, need advice
Hi everyone, after 2 years of smoking every single day, on Monday last week I finally decided I have had enough, smoked 1 more as a bit of a send off I guess but I’ve been fully clean since Tuesday.
When I started smoking I was already depressed with no real outlet, was only smoking every now and again but after a friend of mine took his own life my use drastically went up, instead of every week it became multiple every single day. I wasn’t smoking to enjoy the weed but to not feel depressed. For the past 2 years I hadn’t really talked to anyone about how I felt, if I felt bad I’d just light a joint instead.
But after 2 years of just being depressed and smoking it away I just had enough. I’ve recently started going to therapy for my depression which has definitely helped me getting to this point, but I do still have a long way to go.
Now that I’ve quit, there’s been 2 things I’ve noticed that I need some advice with. I’ve been feeling extra emotional, most likely because now that I’m not constantly pushing it away it finally has a chance to grab my attention. I’m not really sure how to deal with it, as I’ve pretty much locked myself away for the past 2 years I haven’t spoken to friends as much. I’ve never really had an easy time hitting up a friend for anything, but to talk about something like this feels like an extra big hurdle to cross. So I don’t really know how to deal with how I feel right now.
The other thing I have been struggling with is the loss of routine. For what it’s worth I did really enjoy the smoking aspect, I’d sit in my shed for 20-30 minutes, watch either youtube or an anime episode before going back inside. The difficulty is the loss of that routine. Aside from gaming, I don’t really have any hobbies or things I enjoy doing regularly. I’ve been dealing with social anxiety aswell so going outside has been quite difficult. I did notice it has been easier since I quit, but there’s still a ways to to there. So I would love to hear what other people did/recommend to break up that routine, be it inside or outside.
Obviously it’s still very fresh and new, but that’s exactly why I would love some advice