I just want to share my experience :)
Nalaman ko na sinabi niya yung mga sinabi ko sa kanya. And sobrang sakit nun for me kasi I personally asked her if I can trust her, she said yes. I even told her na may tiwala ako sa kanya. Only to find out na sinabi niya pala sakanila. It’s so painful kasi nagtiwala ako sa tao na yun eh.
Di ko lang maintindihan, paano nila nakayang sabihin lahat ng sinabi ko? Yung mga bagay na sinabi ko sakanila when I trusted them, paano nila nakayang gawing topic?
There were times na ang bigat ng pinagdadaanan ko pero what they did was, nagtampo and pinag-usapan ako. Yun yung mga panahon na sobrang nahihirapan na ako at patong patong lahat ng problema ko.
But no one was there for me.
Instead of talking to me to clear things out, they talked about me. I tried to explain my side, but they didn’t believe me anyway.
I left the group. I cut them off. It wasn’t easy but I don’t regret choosing my peace. Nakikita ko pa rin sila, but it doesn’t make me sad that I no longer belong to that group. If anything, it reminds me that I made the right decision.
What happened affected me so much. It caused me so much pain to the point that I wanted to end my life already — hirap na kasi talaga ako sa lahat. Med school is already draining me so much, tapos ganito pa yung nangyayari.
But I’m so thankful for my family and close friends kasi they were with me during my lowest point. Nagpa-counseling na rin ako to help myself.
Andami kong natutunan sa experience ko na ‘to. I can’t trust anyone talaga. I also became closer to my parents, especially to my mom who would call me everyday just to ask how my day went, and para mangumusta.
I know isa lang to sa mga bagay na normal na mapagdaanan sa med school, and I’m glad that this taught me about trust and boundaries.
So to everyone reading this, let’s be kind — ALWAYS. We don’t know how much our words and actions can affect others. We never really know who is silently struggling.