I've been having a really hard time with the waiting and we were finally getting to the end.
We got my protocol and we had a date for the FET. We were so excited, calculating her birthday and so over the moon to finally get to the part were we could actually try to conceive.
And then I had an SIS, they looked in there and said there were polyps and in order to move forward they would need to do a hysteroscopy and remove them.
I just got the surgery date and it is the same day that we would have had our first FET.
I feel a lot of things, im annoyed that with all the time we spent waiting between steps we couldn't have done this test before now. In the very begining they tested me and poked and prodded me a thousand diffrent ways, why couldn't have this been done before now?
I'm so upset with myself, that I couldn't just make a good enough space for her and that I'm the reason we don't get to even try for another whole month. My spouse keeps telling that it's not my fault but I can't help how I feel.
And I'm just disappointed, I've spent months upon months just doing all of this stuff to finally be able to try and transfer and now that finishline has been unexpectedly moved. I'm crying as I write this and I just feel like of hopeless.