I am fed up of my life
So I am a 12th grader who's also preparing for neet in Kota... I have always wanted to become a doctor... And since the day I have come to kota I have never stopped working hard toward my goal.... 11th was good... I prioritized studying only but I allowed myself to chill a bit too... But since the day 12th started I have become so serious about it that even when I am sick I don't skip classes... I study daily and give my 100% to it.. But gradually I have realised that during this whole process I have become so competitive and toxic towards myself that I don't even consider how important my health is... Since three days my body has not been supporting me enough bcs of my periods and this is the first time I have felt so drained and exhausted and I have a test next week... although I have been attending classes despite being unwell I am not able to study by myself at all... I thought I might have sleep debt but i also don't think that's the case bcs I am getting an adequate amount of sleep everyday.. I feel weak.. And guess what I have been crying bcs I can't study and I feel that I am falling behind...whenever I do something it feels like I am wasting my time even though it's not Doomscrolling or procrastinating...Also living in a hostel makes things even harder I miss my parents ,and there's a constant fear in my heart that if I don't show up everyday I'll fail.. Atp I am literally reconsidering my life choices..
If someone has gone through smth similar pls tell me how you coped