u/Apprehensive_One6230

ever since boards started, i was constantly studying, stressing, calculating percentages in my head, comparing expected marks. before exams i literally couldnt sleep properly at all. every night i kept thinking abt marks and expectations and whether all this hard work would finally pay off.

and honestly, i really thought it would.

and now the results came and i got 91%. i know objectively thats not bad, but i genuinely feel horrible.

what hurts the most is sst. i STILL dont get it. i swear i did everything right - presentation, content, maps, headings, underlining, all of it. i walked out feeling confident and thought max to max 4-5 marks kat skte the. but i got 87. baki

the people getting 95-96 worked insanely hard and they deserve it completely. im just hurt because i worked really hard too and still didnt get what i hoped for.

my parents promised me an iphone if i got 95+ and now thats gone too. instead of even acknowledging my effort, all i hear are taunts like “tumne padha hi nahi hoga”. and that hurts because nobody saw the stress, sleepless nights, anxiety before exams. they only care abt the final percentage.

and pls dont say “10th ke marks dont matter”. emotionally they do. and practically too sometimes - scholarships, opportunities, confidence, all of it.

the worst feeling is feeling like no matter how hard i work, it still never becomes enough. and this isnt even the first time ive felt that way.

idk why im posting this tbh. maybe i just wanted someone to understand how disappointing this feels rn.

TURNED 16 TODAYYYYYYYYY