Hello y'all!
I'm a BTech 3rd year student from a tier 3 college , from a below middle class family , 19M.
so it was all good when i was in my first year, but then things went a bit bitter , like i hangout with 2 friends we are a trio like that!!
sometimes its okay with them , we spend time , play games and all , but some times out of fun they start mocking me like "Bandoda" (Fat Guy) , "Karrodaa" (Black Guy) , West Indies and all like that , maybe it's funny for them , but its not all funny for me i felt so sad when then do like that , and i usually talk with a friend (F) and if any fight between us they will pull up like "How did she fell for you" like that its really hurting a lot !!!!
and i even tried telling them its not at all funny for me but they keep repeating the same again and again, the same usually happens with our room mates we live 8 members in a room, i basically do not interfere in any issue or i wont disturb them , but they randomly comes and starts mocking me and starts to do dialogues on me and lot more !!! They do these dialogues out of fun but like its not at all funny for me , every time i felt lonley no one to share these kind of things , i cried sometimes !!!
but i dont understand one thing , why these people mock others even we dont disturb them , what kind of joy they get when a person feels sad and why they enjoy by body shaming others !!!
Now i'm tired of all these like i literally cant bear these anymore , almost everyday theyy do these sort of things!! yaar i know i have to change but the color i got from my birth cant be changed rightt?? and dont know why these guys keep mocking on that basis
i'm willing to go gym , but as i live in college hostel we doesnt have that facility and as in college hostel we cant even plan diet - i tried to do multple times though taking oats and all but money issue
and i know my dressing sense a bit not good but no money to puchase new clothes , as a student i doesnt have any income source!!
i just want to know why i'm that vulnerable and why those guys targetting only mee !!
i even tried walking out when they do such things they say like crybaby walking away.....
i have tried everything possible but nothing worked , i have told them many times dont do that its not funny at all for me, but they all do the same again and agian !!!
i'm feeling like i was the joker of the group :(
please say what i can do or any suggetions on how can i deal with this issue!!
i really want to change my lifestyle and they should treat me normally but dont know how