u/ApprehensiveWall4088

Supposed to be doing my qualifying exams this semester. I'm an international student in the US and have been feeling lonely and isolated, compounded by the fact I'm single and in my 30s and so scared of being alone forever. As my mood has deteriorated the work has increasingly slipped away from me. Had a breakdown over the last couple of weeks and had to talk to my supervisor about it. Had to tell her that I'd only done a fraction of the work I'm supposed to have, it was so embarrassing and I feel so ashamed. Am considering taking a leave of absence next semester, but that feels so sad. I really love my project and I love the work and can't believe I have the opportunity to do it here, but feel like I'm blowing it all up.