Never fully moved on
I met my first love when I was 15 years old and he was 17. We went to high school together-he played football and I cheered. We were 100% committed to one another and he was truly so kind, thoughtful, and supportive. I was a little more on the wild side, but we never cheated on one another. If anything our loyalty and combined commitment to one another ultimately contributed to our demise.
We stayed together through high school and went away to the same college. Everyone assumed we would get married after college and I think that was our shared goal, too. However, I got curious about what it might be like to date around like my sorority sisters (and even friends in high school) were able to do, l while I stayed with the same guy year after year. I remained loyal but resentment built over time. I definitely did not recognize or appreciate what a good thing I had until it was too late. My junior year of college he broke up with me.
I have since moved on with my husband of 26 years. I absolutely love my husband but the truth is I never fully got over my first love. I know we live nearby one another as he’s just one or two towns over from where I live. I still think about him often and I am curious if he ever thinks of me? I wonder if he ever has any regrets? Does he still hold a small place for me in his heart? Any feedback would be greatly appreciated. Thank you