I just turned 40 a week ago. For years, I’ve been struggling with what I thought was just treatment-resistant depression and anhedonia. I have no motivation, no energy, and zero sex drive. It’s been destroying my marriage to the point where my wife has accused me of cheating because the desire just isn't there. I’ve been on antidepressants with almost no success.
My doctor finally ran labs after my wife suggested I might need TRT. My total testosterone came back at 84 ng/dL.
I have a 20 year history of heavy substance use (Oxy, Heroin, and Fentanyl). I’ve been clean, but I’ve felt like a catatonic zombie. I’ve watched almost everyone close to me, friends and family, die from fentanyl in the last few years. I felt like I got clean just to be miserable and alone, but seeing this lab result is the first time I’ve felt hope.
Has anyone else here with a history of long term opioid use seen levels this low? Did TRT help you regain your life and "get your soul back" after getting clean? I’m praying this is the turning point.