Hey guys, this is my first time using Reddit!
Anyways, I just wanted to know if there are other people like me out there too. Let me give you a small window into my life.
I studied in Bahrain, and then eventually moved to Bangalore to do my BBA. It didn't work out because of a lot of backlogs. I'll be honest—it wasn't because I was incapable of passing those exams, I was just fed up. I've always had this feeling inside me that I'm meant for something much bigger. I'm pretty sure many of you might have felt that same spark at some point.
Pinne enikk myrr college staffsinte jada kanan vayatond I dropped out.
It wasn't easy to convince my parents, but somehow I managed it.
From my first year itself, I've always wanted to start a business—probably after watching some reel of someone starting a business and making a lot of money. Since then, the idea of finance and business has just been stuck in my head.
But the worst part is—I've never really taken proper action. Apart from talking about it to friends, family, or society, I haven't actually done much. I don't have a clear plan, no real skills, and no degree. The most I've done is create a website by watching YouTube videos when I was obsessed with dropshipping for a while. "Jack of all trades but master of none" would be the right quote to describe my life overall.
I've spent countless hours just consuming content about finance and business ideas without actually doing anything. I really do want to start something, but I don't have the right people around me, no proper investment, and not even the right idea. I just don't know where to start.
After dropping out, I left India and came back to Bahrain thinking, "Okay, this is going to be my new life." I planned to get a job here, start investing, and wait for the right business idea to come along. Since the minimum salary here is 35k.I thought I could build something from here.
But things didn't go as planned, as usual.
Before leaving India, I had a girlfriend. We broke up because of long distance. I also lost touch with many of my friends. Life here started to feel really lonely, and ever since then, I've been craving to go back to Kerala.
I feel like a dead corpse here, with no momentum in life. When I look around, it feels like everyone is doing something with their life. Maybe that's not completely true, but at least it feels like most people are moving forward in one way or another.
I wouldn't say this to discourage anyone, but just as a reality check for those planning to move abroad for work—it's not as easy as it looks in reels or online. It's hard to find good friends or relationships here. People my age (I'm 21) are fewer, and living here is expensive.
For some reason, all of a sudden, I just want to go back and be around my own people again. (I'm sorry if that sounds wrong—I don't mean it in a bad way. I guess I just miss home.) Maybe even get a glimpse of her one last time.
So yeah… this is where I need your help.
I'll be coming back next month. Do you think I should stay in Kerala and try to find a job in Kochi or somewhere there, and just live life a little more in India for some time? Or should I take up the responsibilities of my family, come back to Bahrain, find a job, and move forward—even if it feels like a corpse?
I know the answer might seem obvious when you read this, but please try to think from my perspective before sharing your thoughts.
Would really appreciate your advice.