u/Apart-Block8656

Can someone please mix and master my song

So a couple days ago, I first started cutting, and it helped a lot. But I ended up moving back home out of my dorm, and I already want to go back, not because of my family, just because I’m so depressed and I don’t want them to see me like that. My grades went to shit, and if I find out I can’t come back next semester, I’ll be hurt even worse and probably end it all, to be honest, because it feels like I don’t have much longer left and probably only one person cares.

I also told my girlfriend, and she keeps getting overwhelmed, so I just stopped telling her. My mom called me two days ago, and I lied, saying I was good, and hearing how happy she was to hear that hurt more. I’m abusing substances like crazy and might switch to pills now.

couldn’t stop crying and decided to do it it works and it is addicting but why does my arm sting so bad

So basically, when I first met my girlfriend, we went from saying we were going to be "fuck buddies" to becoming great friends. But when I finally met her in person, my friend and I were trying to two-man her, and she didn't do it because she said she didn't like white guys. Then later, she said that if she did date white guys, she would want him to look like my friend.

A while later, we started dating. One time, I told her to cover up her ass, and she did. When I went to the bathroom and came out, I overheard him asking, "Why did he make you cover up your ass?" and she said, "Apparently it's out." Then they got quiet when I walked in. I said, "Why are you worried about my girl's ass?" and he didn't say anything.

Later, she came over and was showing me her nails, and he came over, grabbed her hand softly, and was looking at them. I was pissed off. Then I'd have to go to class, and they'd be alone in the dorm together for an hour or two because she would say the night and didn't have class, and the dorm would usually be locked, even though I unlocked it.

She also doesn't have him on social media but has his other friend on there and she said she unadded my roomate after she found out he was dating some girl.

And when i vent to her about him and the shit he does she never fully goes against him she just says he's probably jealous but beats around the bush

and she also started listening to songs of the artist he loves they randomly got in her playlist and she never listened to it before

and before she moved out the dorms that whole week he took forever to leave the dorm and would stay the night some nights instead of going to his girl and it would piss me off and i told my gf and she said “he’s doing it on purpose and he’s probably jealous “

and when i asked her if she fucked the roomate or his friend ( to be fair two of them are chopped ) she said “what do you want me to do🤦🏼‍♀️ i explained everything how i remember it, i told you ion fw them, ion don’t got anyone of them on snap, i told you i was w you and only you and on ur side. if i could go back and change it w the info ik now i would but i can’t. i mean idk what else you want”

So basically, when I first met my girlfriend, we went from saying we were going to be “fuck buddies” to becoming great friends. When I finally met her in person, my friend and I were trying to two-man her, but she didn’t go for it because she said she didn’t like white guys. Later, she said that if she did date white guys, she would want one who looked like my friend.

After a while, we started dating. One time, I told her to cover up her ass, and she did. When I went to the bathroom and came back, I overheard him asking, “Why did he make you cover up your ass?” and she said, “Apparently it’s out.” Then they got quiet when I walked in. I asked him, “Why are you worried about my girl’s ass?” and he didn’t say anything.

Later, she came over and was showing me her nails. He came up, grabbed her hand softly, and started looking at them. That pissed me off. Sometimes I’d have to go to class, and they’d be alone in the dorm for an hour or two because she would stay the night and didn’t have class. The dorm would usually be locked, even though I unlocked it.

She doesn’t have him on social media, but she does have his friend added. She said she removed my roommate after finding out he was dating someone.

When I vent to her about him and the stuff he does, she never fully takes my side. She just says he’s probably jealous and kind of beats around the bush.

She also started listening to songs by an artist he likes. Those songs randomly showed up in her playlist, even though she never listened to that artist before.

Before she moved out of the dorms, that whole week he would take forever to leave and would even stay the night sometimes instead of going to his own girlfriend. It annoyed me, and when I told my girlfriend, she said, “He’s doing it on purpose, and he’s probably jealous.”

When I asked her if she ever hooked up with my roommate or his friend, she said, “What do you want me to do? I explained everything how I remember it. I told you I don’t mess with them. I don’t have any of them on Snap. I told you I was with you and only you and on your side. If I could go back and change it with the info I know now, I would, but I can’t. I don’t know what else you want.” tl;dr am i crazy for thinking my gf is cheating

So basically me and her met on snap and agreed to be fuckbuddies at first but then over time we became friends and then she got a bf because she loves football players and one day she randomly texted me saying she lost her anal virginity and then i asked her if she was good and if it hurt and she said a little and etc but then me and her started fucking each other while they were tg and then they broke up but once me and her got together it was good and then she said she texted her ex to come get his hoodie i was pretty pissed off about that and then later i’d try anal and she never would let me which is cool i understand it’s her body but what upsets me is now she’s saying she never did it with him and stuff . And i keep getting this feeling that’s she’s cheating