u/AnythingLoud7913

Alright. I really was getting tired of splitting the pills. I leveled out on 7.5 and …. Why not? 10 is supposed to be the minimum effective dose.

I hope the adjustment period isn’t as brutal this time. 0 to 5 sucked and 5 to 7.5 took way longer than I anticipated.

Today is day one so I will come back and update this as time goes on.

Since I’ve started Lexapro I’ve obsessively checked this sub as a sounding board. So I am just going to document my experience for others in the future.

Just finished my first weekend of CASA training. Oof 😵‍💫. So being candid and vulnerable…

We learned a lot about the importance of having parental empathy but I just can’t help but feeling angry about pregnant mothers doing drugs before and after giving birth. The idea is horrifying.

I signed up for this wanting to help break some of these cycles but it sort of feels like these kids just aren’t given a fighting chance. I guess the training is really opening my eyes up to just how bad things are out there.

When I was a young mother I dealt with poverty and domestic violence but I did everything to get out of it and took advantage of every single resource I could find. I want to teach kids that with grit you can break out. But idk. This training in some ways is bringing up PTSD for me and feeling super anxious. Also, when I imagine kids in the imaginary but very real examples, I feel so stressed and like…

I feel like I need to be brave and that I can do this. I just want to protect these babies more than the system can.

I guess there a bit of expectation vs. reality here. And I knew that reality is bad but… it is feeling more real now. Lots of big feelings…

Edit: thank you so much for the thoughtful advice and the lack of judgment on the feelings I’m going through.