u/Anyth1ngButN0rmal

More clover posting.. lol...

Anyways, I just watched Clover's Exit Interview. It was fun and all, but I feel dysohoric now. In an AMA post, someone(that person is a massive twinkie pie btw. He knows who he is 👀) asked me how I (Clover, maybe) learnt my butterflies' names. My first thought was that I made them up on the spot. But, in the interview, she says they told her. THAT WAS MY SECOND OPTION. But now I can't take that back. I also hate how dumb they make me sound. It makes me so sad, especially since I am proved to be smart IRL by some tests I took at the doctors years ago, and re-took a week or so ago. I'm not "gifted", but just smart. So, thinking of being "dumb" makes me very upset. I've always been insecure about not being smart enough for other people's standards. So the possiblity of being Clover and having to embrace that part of her into my identity upsets me.

I wish I shifted as her to feel better. I tend to feel better when I'm her and think of my butterflies. I love my butterflies, they're like my children.

Yeah, but I feel so guilty about not "guessing" how I knew my butterflies' names. Even thought I DID think about that possibility and kind of regretted my answer...

- ⚫💥/🍀🦋?

WHY. I LOVE III, IT'S ONE OF MY FAVOURITE II SEASONS. BUT WHY?? AS A FAN FICTIONKIN, I HATE WATCHING III. IT MAKES ME FEEL A LOT OF THINGS. I'M NOT USED TO FEELING THAT MUCH BECAUSE I'M TAKING A SHIT LOAD O ANTIDEPRESSANTS, SO I MOSTLY FEEL MINIMAL STUFF. I HAVEN'T LEARNT HOW TO HANDLE STRONG EMOTIONS YET.

HOWEVER, IF I WANNA KINFIRM CLOVER, I NEED TO WATCH III OR SOMETHING. 😭😭😭

Kill me/nsrs

- ⚫💥

She was SO LOW of a kinsider a few days ago, now she's my main kinsider.

The original picture is a well escalating quickly btw

- 🍀🐞?

I'm getting closer to a kinfirm.... (threat) /j

Idk what to do with Clover. Sighhhhhhhhhhhh

Sometimes I'm her, sometimes I'm not. It's driving me insane. I don't know if that's just how shifts work or something, since I usually see myself as my kins all the time. But it's difficult to tell with this mf. She's so weird. How the fuck did I even kinfirm my kins bro?

I've gotten euphoria from her, had (kind of) shifts, missed "my" butterflies I've almost cried from how ugly "I" am (as Clover), felt my heart sink when Nickel called her a witch or when Box was hurt because of her luck... I even feel kinda weird referring to her in the third person sometimes. I don't know if that's enough for me to tell if I identify AS her.

- 🐞🍀?/⚫💥/🔮🌙

I just saw a BEAUTIFUL edit of me and Diary and had a massive shift. So AMA if you wanna :>

Wiki bc you were a good boy/girl/thing /nsrs: Moonstone | Excellent Entities Wiki | Fandom

EHHEHEHHEHEHEHEHHEEHE

I was eating cucumber and I got a pretty big sense of euphoria for Clover. I then thought of apples. MORE EUPHORIA. And then bread with sugar. MORE EUPHORIA. And then I started singing a song. MORE EUPHORIA. EHEE_(HQWEUHFPURWHUHNEFWQLKWJ$<FEC

*Dies of happiness. I'm definetly lucky today hehe*

Edit: I just got MORE euphoria from a butterfly ring. EHEHHEHHEHHEHEHEHHEHEHHEHHEHe

- 🍀?/⚫💥

I'm going crazy. It feels like they're competing to see which will get to kinsider kindergarten No kinsider hell for them because they don't deserve that. They're too whimsical for that. BUT THAT'S THE PROBLEM. WHICH ONE IS IT? WHICH ONE AM I? AM I ONE, BOTH OR NONE??

How can I know? Someone please helppp

Idk why, but I think he looks really good with his hair like that. I'm getting memories of how it smelt. It wasn't good. His hair usually smelt good and was silky. Still, if he were clean in that moment, I would've just kissed him or something.

Don't get me wrong, he's always handsome. But I just feel like he needed love in that moment, and I'm very protective of my friends (and partner) as Plasma Ball. So I would've kissed him. He's just too cute. I wanna hug him and cherish him forever.

Idk how to draw birds and I'm in a pretty big Moonstone shift, so this is me as Moonstone holding Crackers.

- 🔮🌙/⚫💥

Edit: I FOUND THE POST. I DIDN'T KNOW IT HAD TO BE MY HIGHEST KIN 😭

Do I have to re-do it?

I hate that she's overshadowing my Plasma Ball permashift, but whatever. Iike being her.

Here's the wiki: Moonstone | Excellent Entities Wiki | Fandom

Wiki URL included in the pictures (I think)

JUDGE ME

Edit: for some reasons, the links aren't appearing on the pictures. So here they are in order:

Plasma Ball | Paper Puppets Take 2 Wiki | Fandom

Moonstone | Excellent Entities Wiki | Fandom

Fan | Inanimate Insanity Wiki | Fandom

Lilypad | Lakeside Party Wiki | Fandom

For context, Moonstone has canonically been in a mental health institution. She was shown in the padded room, in which I've been several times (that room was used so the patient couldn't hurt others or themselves, not because I went crazy). I hadn't thought about it the first time I was in a psych ward, I wasn't awakened yet. But this time, I thought about it a lot. I bonded a lot with my inner Moonstone.

Also, I know you're reading this, Post-it Note. And if you're not, no one will know. So it's fine. So yeah, that's why I died for a while lmao.

For the future, if I ever go silent again, I'm probably in a hospital or on vacation :>