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Relapse after day 132, felt on top of the world. I was transmuting, doing everything right, focusing on my life, but I didn't stop fantasizing. I thought I 'deserved' it, I didn't even fantasize about sex a lot of time, it was mostly about the connection with a feminine partner, having her lean on me and feeling safe in my arms. Well, even that led to peeking, peeking to edging and edging to a full blown relapse. I genuinely thought I wouldn't ejaculate again outside of marriage, and I did two times in three days.

Beware the ego friends, the moment you believe you're above lust the moment lust drags you back to the depths of hell.