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Hi guys,
I'm manifesting a happy, healthy relationship with my SP. I literally manifested the breakup. Sometimes I would imagine step by step how he would leave me for another girl — the usual stuff: ignoring my texts, saying goodnight early but staying online till midnight, and constantly saying he was too busy to meet. Everything I imagined ended up manifesting. I hate myself for that, for not thinking in my favor.
On the last day we texted, he said he would reply to my texts (which basically means he won't initiate, right?). I'm trying to revise the situation by thinking he will text me first, but his words 'I will only reply to your texts' are imprinted in my mind so strongly that I can't let them go. Whenever I tell myself that he will text me, a contradictory thought creeps in saying he won't.
Today I was missing him so badly that I texted him 'Hi.' My hands started shaking, so I took it as a sign and deleted the message for everyone. Now I'm sobbing.
I'm exhausted. I don't know what to do. I only want to think in my favor, but I don't know how. Help me!!"