These past few days have EASILY been the hardest for me. The determination of The Quit isn’t a high anymore. Right now I’m High on the Low that is the lack of dopamine.
I am AuDHD, I had a meltdown yesterday.
My focus is….woooo buddy. Ain’t good.
My anxiety is constantly high I feel it in my throat gripping
…and I’m depressed and have this feeling of lonely heaviness.
Irritability.
Insomnia.
A bottoming out of motivation juice.
I work out everyday, but right now that’s all I can bring myself to. I’m stressing over things I do not need to stress about. Making up problems. I’m a ball of tightness. It’s not even I Crave cigarettes it’s that I CRAVE that dopamine and my usual way of fulfilling that bump is gone with no replacement.
For folk who’ve had these same feelings while the brain is rewiring. How did you Make yourself have energy to DO things to get dopamine.
Where did you find dopamine?
I can’t find the shift from sit to prepared action. I’m stuck.
The best I’ve done is piddle around and let my adhd putter until I can’t focus anymore and sit back down.
I’m calling on friends to get me out of the house to help me start unsticking but damn. I feel like I got tar in my brain not just my lungs.