Emotionless of just not in love?
I am have been in a 4 year relationship with a man who I love dearly. I was the one who fell in love first. Since then, we have built a life together. We live together, have the same social circles, and even a business together. I am almost 50. I am always the one initiating sex. Always the one asking for a kiss or a hug. Always the one showing / initiating emotional and physical love. I know that there are different love languages. His are acts of service. I have expressed my feelings about this, but I get silence pretty much. Recently on Mother’s Day, I once again asked him to come lay down with me and make love to me when I was taking a nap. He was going to do some yard work. He said he would come lay down when he was done. I fell asleep, and woke up to him gone. He had left to go to his family’s for Mother’s Day. I texted him and pretty said “I am over asking and begging for you. You could have given me 5 mins and hugged me at the fucking least. Fuck this. I’m so over it. I’m done. asking. I am done wanting. I’m actually so serious. We can be buddies. I am absolutely done asking you to love me. Done.”
Today is Wednesday, and since Mother’s Day on Sunday, I have been literally spending all day and night in the spare bedroom. Not once has he come in. When we pass by each other in the house if I come out to get a drink or something, it is just complete silence. I just feel like I cannot keep asking for him to give me the bare minimum emotionally….forget even the sex part! Am I wrong? I used to think he did love me and that was just who he was….but it has become me questioning if I am even attractive to him let alone loved by him anymore. I’m so sad.