One sided love
Please advise: I’m in love with a guy for more than 3 years. I met him in college and It started with friendship first, and I wasn’t attracted towards him or anything, but I don’t know how I fell in love with him. I didn’t realise it, or you can say I was in denial for a few months.
He was/is in a relationship with someone who is really nice and all, but she can’t marry him for religious reasons. I didn’t commit to anybody else, not in hope or anything, but I couldn’t even imagine being with anyone other than him, and still can’t. I used to cry every single time seeing them together in college and whenever he posted on Instagram.
We were not in contact for a while, and after he broke up with her, he said that no tag yet but we have a future. But because of a mistake of mine, I think he is back with her. I don’t know, as he has lately been avoiding my phone calls as well.
It breaks my heart, and I cry every night. I don’t know what to do.
I've tried to move on and everything, tried therapy, distracting myself and currently super focused on my career. But still there is a heaviness in my chest whenever I think about him, see his story. It's like if I'm doing something work related or anything and even if I'm not doing anything, I'm always thinking about him, always crying and remembering conversations and memories with him. or looking at his pictures.
P.S. He has known that I love him for the past 1.5 years.