u/Anxious-Funny-2704

So the last year's waitlist movement was around 250-260, and here I am with waitlist number 309. I might not have felt this bad if I were waitlisted above 400, but this is like regretting my every response in the interview and my grades🫠. I just want to vent it out. I know I'm not going to forget this for a month.

So I scored 92%ile in CAT last year. It wasn't bad, but it wasn't where I wanted to be. So I decided to take a job, prepare alongside, and give it another shot (got it after a lot of struggle, anyways). Seemed reasonable at the time.

It hasn't been.

The work environment is something I genuinely struggle with. Not the work itself, but the people and the culture around it. Everyone seems to be constantly performing for the manager, saying things they don't mean, laughing at the right moments, making themselves visible in the most artificial ways. I don't know how to do that, and I don't want to. Being around it all day leaves me feeling a kind of tired that makes me question my own life decisions 🫠is it going to be like this even after MBA?

The days have no real boundary. One evening I came home, got comfortable, sat down to study and got a call to come back to office urgently. I went. Reached there and found nothing actually needed me. Then right before log out, my manager came to me and asked me to do his work, which took me 2 hours after 6 PM. I could have said no, I know. But I don't want someone saying I am not responsible or not serious about my job. I am trying my best so that no one can point a finger at me or disrespect me 😃 that is the last thing I want.

By the time I get home every day after traveling 22 km, studying is out of the question.

This has been the pattern. And somewhere between managing the job, the environment and my own frustration, my CAT preparation has completely lost its rhythm.

I don't know how to manage work pressure and preparation at the same time. I don't want to ruin CAT because of the job, but I can't leave the job either , I know how badly a drop year is treated in interviews.

It has just been a tough period. That's really all it is.

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