Hello fellow moms,
Iam a FTM here, baby is currently 6 months and I have to join back work next week.
My postpartum journey has been extremely tough and exhausting. My mom passed away in my childhood so I had to learn everything about motherhood by myself.
My MIL has not been much of help, in fact she makes things worse for me by avoiding baby sleep cues, playing with her even if she is hungry for a while. I will end up having to console a very overstimulated baby end of the day.
Husband has a few health issues due to which i have been the only one handling night feeds too.
There were days where I have been functioning on two hours of sleep. Finally things are starting to settle down a bit for me but my ML is ending.
I work for an MNC but my work is very demanding requiring me to work for at least 7 hours of my shift.
I have rotational shifts including nights and rotational week offs which change every 3 months .
Managing all of this seems impossible if it’s just me. If I want to continue my job I would have to ask help from my MIL which will things more tough for me or hire a live in nanny whom I should solely trust with my baby which I don’t think I can .
I’m not sure how to proceed.
Iam at crossroads where i want to work and earn enough so that I could give my baby whatever she wants but at the same time I am worried things will become too hectic for me where I can’t do justice for both my roles.
I just really want to know do you regret leaving your job for your baby? Was it worth it?
Thanks in advance.