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I went to a Miami surgeon because of the cost, my before wasn’t bad I just really needed muscle repair, I was healthy, good weight, no issues. Come out of this surgery and by week two I have MRSA and a horrible seroma, go to the ER 10k bill that I hope insurance will help with, packing the wound for almost two months and then I realize I’m still very swollen, like in a concerning way where I think it is my muscles and not regular swelling, now I have had multiple hematomas on my incision line that keep coming out of open wound from other hematomas. I have no idea why this is happening. I’m so fucking depressed I literally want to k myself over this some days because why is it I just wanted my muscles to be fixed and now I feel botched af, my belly button is on the right side of my body not centered, I literally have to wear oversized tees to hide how big my mons is and all the nurse tells me is give it time even though I know this is not a time thing. I just know. I’m so beside myself. I just need some hope, I honestly wish I left my body alone.

And yes I wore the compression, I did massages.

So I have pretty severe Mons swelling still post 3 months po. I was leaning on a piece of playground equipment today when I was playing with my daughter and I completely felt it get pushed in which makes me think it’s my muscles if that makes sense? I’m worried that something isn’t right with my muscle repair and that’s why it sticks out so bad. Of course ps tells me it’s normal. And when I lay down it all goes flat.