I’ve been taking Bupropion XL on and off for 6 years with various manufacturers over time. Truly, I never really gave the manufacturer much thought, and am only realizing now that I am having issues just how many I’ve gone through. Still, it’s been life changing. (I remember feeling “wow, I forgot what it was like to be crazy” when I would forget to take it for two or more days.) It truly makes life feel possible and doable.
Anyway, I’ve been on a downward spiral for 2-3 months, progressively getting worse until I reached a breaking point and I finally said “It feels like I’m not even taking anything.” In my panic, I convinced myself that, for whatever reason, my pills were placebos or something was wrong with them. I thought that maybe my last 90 day supply had been a new manufacturer, but my pharmacist told me that I had been taking pills from that manufacturer (Rising Pharm) for a while. I still made the moves I needed to to get on pills from a new manufacturer (Granules), and just days later I feel infinitely better. I’m not miserable and exhausted all the time. I can get through the day without the heaviness of depression in my chest. I literally feel lighter. I tried to tell myself that it was the placebo effect of my utter desperation and excitement about the prospect of feeling better because of starting a new medication, but, at this point, it’s been almost a week, and I just feel it’s undeniable. This medication is working. Rising Pharm was just.. not.
Now I’m seeing online that this has been a recurring issue with Bupropion for years. This is brutal. I went from feeling lower than I’ve felt in YEARS (suicidal thoughts, panic episodes, constant crying) to having a switch flipped and the light turned back on inside me. It’s unreal. I thought I was losing my mind.
Anyone else experience this, or, has anyone else specifically taken Bupropion from Rising Pharm? I only started researching because my poor mom was experiencing the same things, and I realized it wasn’t just me. This is not okay.