I Feel Stuck
For the safety and wellbeing of my family, I’m not fully out. I’ve told a few people I’m trans, but I can count on one hand the number of people who know. It’s excruciating sometimes. When I meet another trans woman, I can’t help but marvel at how beautiful she is and how much I wish I looked that good. That feminine. I’m trying to find ways to be more feminine that don’t immediately out me, but I find the longer I operate in ‘boy mode’, the more it hurts when I think about what I could look like.
For those in a similar situation, how did you deal with it? Were there ways you could feminize without people around you knowing? Any help or tips would be greatly appreciated; I do things to feminize when I’m alone, but I feel like I need more than that couple hours a week.