I got funded but I am still loser
I got funded, but I'm still a loser. I feel like I'm about to give up. Two years down the drain, two years of rebuilding my brain, managing my emotions. But it feels like the light at the end of the tunnel was just a light bulb that burned out. I don't understand what's happening with the market now; I don't understand anything. I don't think I even understand myself anymore. I previously got funded for $5,000, but because of hidden rules, it's practically impossible to make money, and withdrawing money is impossible. I bought myself an account with a reputable prop firm for $50,000, and I don't know what's going on now. I have 1% left before my maximum possible loss, and I'm giving myself this one chance. And I don't know what the problem is, I'm not feeling the market, I'm again afraid that I'm somehow wrong, not like that, I just want to be normal. I just want the pain to stop. I'm writing this post emotionally, and I don't know what will happen to me in a month, two, three. But I don’t know what I want from this life, if I give up anyway…