Sharing my story
(Or more of a vent/rant)
Got sick in Jan 2022. Non-stop symptoms since then. Have traversed the healing of gut issues, histamine issues, cognitive/nervous system issues, fatigue, and more. Took hundreds of supplements, saw 20+ doctors/practitioners.
And literally, not better at all. The only thing I've gotten better at is recognizing I'm in this trap where there is literally no solution. And recognizing that not eating during the day + caffeine + zyrtec at night is literally my only relief.
Each meal is a death sentence. Crazy complex symptoms that are indescribable to people who ask. No one can relate unless they experience it. It's pure hell after every meal or even a tiny bite of food. Tied into my emotional/limbic/survival brain, every morsel food my body perceives as a threat.
Super sensitive to the world around me. Crazy irritation/anger/rage, especially when histamine overtakes things. Crying to get release.
I find myself isolated, alone. All the while maintaining a "normal" life. Portraying normalcy in a body that appears to be normal but feels like it's dying inside. Working a full-time job and wearing masks of healthy. Gotta survive.
My only hope is that science will one day be up to speed on this long-covid madness and will have the cure for our ongoing suffering.
This complexity, this confusing nonsensical complexity that has me throwing pasta in every direction to find relief, is just pure madness.
I'm also considering throwing pasta in the homeopathic direction. One thing I haven't tried yet. That direction needs some pasta. My nervous system is so sensitive that when I eat something cold, my innards feel like a popsicle. When I eat something hot, it feels like an oven inside. So maybe this homeopathic route will utilize that sensitivity.
Again, trapped.