u/Ancient_Switch_3509

I’ve been doing it for a while but I am curious why not much is coming out after I try and throw up?

I’ve been doing it for a while but I am curious why not much is coming out after I try and throw up?

I feel like a ghost orchid
In a land of lupins

They smother what is smaller
They choke the air
They bloom LOUD

I hang
From air

Leafless
Living on the last breath
Of something
Already abandoning me

The fragility of my existence
Is not gentle

One misstep
And I am erased

I don’t want to be like the lupins
Certain
Rooted
Taking without notice

But I don’t want to be this either
Clinging to survive like
It is a mistake

I am the orchid
Not seen
Not heard
Not held

Just barely existing

A bee
Different, but in harmony
A voice of the garden
Never alone

Weaving the world together
Not disappearing in it

I am the orchid

One misstep
And I vanish

A bee
A bee is what I want to be

But

I am still here
I will not disappear

I will be the bee