I dont know what to do with my life
Well, i dont know where im headed. I graduated high school last year and decided to take a gap year since i wasn’t sure of what i wanted to do, and funnily enough i feel even more lost now. I worked for a few months during this gap year, then stopped in order to focus on portfolios and whatnot, ive been rejected from all five or six universities i applied to. Perhaps i shouldve taken preparatory courses since almost all of them were fashion design related. On the other hand i thought my base skills would be enough to cover the bar, which i was dead wrong about. There was one university that wasnt fashion related, i had a good chance of getting into it - i fucked up my interview terribly. So now i dont know what to do, in europe most deadlines are over, there are no other fashion universities in my budget i can apply to, and even if i did get into one out of my budget and took out a loan, chances of me finding housing in two months would be extremely hard. I refuse to stay in my home country and want to be away, but still in europe bc my parents want it so. Im really not sure what to do, i feel like a faliure, i thought i can be good enough for art and fashion. I brushed off all of these rejections and now its hitting me all at once. I know i have way more rejections to face in my lifetime and whatnot, but it really hurts that i wasnt good enough. My best bet is to maybe find a basic bachelor that accepts just based off of grades and CV and then search for housing asap. ; On one hand perhaps i couldve found courses to pay for and gotten a better head start that wouldve helped me get into at least one of these universities, i guess my ego was too high? I thought i could do it, i really did.
So yeah my question is, where do i go from here what do i do? Another gap year isnt an option, and im seriously reconsidering if im made for that sphere if i got so many rejections. I dont know anymore.