u/Ancient_Cook6424

I am a 30F diagnosed in 2024, after a long wait I started triation in July 2025 with Phsychiatry UK. I have the innatentive type of ADHD, I have depression and anxiety tendencies and for me every day is a struggle to do the most simple tasks.

When I started with Elvanse I could really feel the difference, started with 30mg for two weeks. I was able to leave the bed, clean the house, and get things done at work. I had to report my blood pressure, heart rate etc every single day because the prescriber was worried about my 'elevated' heart rate.

He kept lowering the dosis and I had to report my blood pressure 5 times a day and even asked me to open a capsule dulute it in water take a syringe so I could have half of the lower dosis! At this point the medicine was not working and I felt so overwhealmed I had to do all these steps.

I just stoped replying in the platform, I felt that it was just too much and it wasn't even working anymore. I kept the remaining pills and used them to be able to leave the bed and go to work every day but of course it only lasted a short while.

What came after made me feel horrible, is one of those situations where you finally get the support you think you need and you let it slip from your hands. I knew if I didn't reply I was going to loose my spot and I ignored it anyway. But the worst part is I became a mess, even more than before!

I felt exhausted every day, the lack of motivation and paralisis returned like a tsunami. I eventually lost my job and I keep thinking that everything started when I decided to not reply to the f**** prescriber in Psychiatry UK. Why is the triation process so demanding and unpersonal. Evrything is through a platform, I never spoke to a single person being since my diagnosis. I don't know what to do! Will they ever take me back? Where do I even ask for help again, I will probably have to wait another 2 years. I feel so helpless rn.