u/Ancient-Swing-2119

I’m holding on by a thin thread
and I know it.

I don’t let go
because I’m scared of what’s left
when you’re gone.

But I can feel it happening anyway,
every feeling that isn’t returned hurts.
It just hurts.

My therapist says I should like myself more.
That I’m worth it.
That I’m a good friend,
funny,
pretty,
smart.

What was missing then?

When did it change?
When did you stop feeling it?
Why didn’t you tell me?

Was it me?
Was there something I could’ve done
and didn’t?
Or is there someone else?

Can I fix this?
I probably can’t.

But I still wish I could.