u/AnalystMinimum8631

My Ex (FTM 22) broke up with me and I miss every day. I (MTF 21) still am in love with him and broke no contact once. My bad guys it's one month in the break up. I completely see why he broke up with me. He broke up with me because I said I have poly feelings but the bigger issue was my inability to set an equal. We had a lot of perspective clashes as well as I have borderline. I was in DBT and taking meds so it was somewhat manageable. I'm in DBT currently and have been reading up on how to be a better partner in order to show up for the next person in my life. I did have double standards and didn't allow him to take up space. I was making a lot more progress in that regard. I'm probably like 60% of the reason why the relationship didn't work out . He was so kind. I have been hiding my feelings about how much I love him in order to allow him to leave. When he dumped me and reassured him I would be safe and I had a support network. I miss everything about him :/. I need to completely unpack how I view relationships and how I have been working on not being judgemental with my friends and more understanding. I want to change so the next person I am with has an easier time. I wish I meant him at a more healed part of my life. I hope the little goober is doing the best in life. I know he has the ability to do great things. His strength and kindness in the wake of everything he went through is admirable. Although he had communication issues he was a relatively wonderful soul. He was mean sometimes but so was I. I will forever cherish the memories we had with each other. I loved/love him and there will always be a special place for him in my heart .