Anti routine
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Chi wahd f merrakch interested in going for a night run tri9 casa or wherever. N7r9o calories. On some innocent stuff
Is it normal to want to think about blocking all your family members and friends( men lwalida o lwalid lkhot sghar olkbar l3mam l khalat ...), just disappearing, and focusing on your job? I am a 23-year-old male living in Morocco, with a normal job, working on myself. But the way my family is, it's a bit complicated. We are 13 in total, including me. Growing up, I saw a lot of trouble... and parents who only get involved and talk to you if money is mentioned. During high school and university, they never respected or cared about my point of view. But once you're older and have an income, they somehow get involved and start caring and loving you, asking how much you earn, what you do with the money. They start calculating your expenses for you. And having a girlfriend is even considered a flop for them. Explaining yourself is never enough. Honestly, since I started living away, life has gotten better. I feel good, but once there's a voice message or one call, the mood is instantly ruined. I feel depressed, not enough, vague, completely empty. There's a lot going on, considering the expenses, our generation's mindset... a lot more.
Lately, this idea has started to feel like the best decision someone can make: changing social media accounts, blocking the old ones, the phone number, everyone. And just focusing on living your life.
What do you think, guys? I just somehow believe this would be the best thing to do, leave the family behind, never visit my hometown, leave the judging and noisy energy behind, and just focus on what matters. But given the importance of family in our society, it's a bit hard.
I am a 22-year-old male. She is older than me, 25. I've been in a relationship with her for over two years now. It's a long-distance relationship. Everything was good, the talks, the calls, the meetups every now and then. She lives far away, so basically we've met three times in these two years. She is good, cute. We enjoy doing a lot of things together; we have common taste, museums, brutal art, etc.
Once we meet up, life feels good. And in all this time, I have never felt like I was putting in effort. Everything just felt natural. But given my age, the final destination I want to reach, who I want to be, and the money involved, since meeting up requires a huge amount of money lately, it's started to exhaust me.
She didn't do anything wrong. And honestly, I haven't felt anything since the beginning, since I'm a human being with an avoidant attachment issue. So basically, I fear being rejected and being alone more than anything( i end being alone since dealing with emotionsand peopleis overwhelming). And honestly, I knew I was driven by this a long time ago. But she is just innocent, she is a perfect human being. For some reason, she feels safe around me.
But lately, I just can't respond or talk on video calls or anything. It's been a month, and I don't know what to do anymore. Talking to other people is good, normal, feels smooth. But with her, it feels like I have to focus and put energy into it.
Please give me some advice. I really need it. I don't want to hurt her. It's just me not feeling safe in any relationship, and every interaction is a war and a mission to be accepted. Once I am accepted, or the other person feels safe around me, I get this urge to disappear and leave that clean image.
I’m a normal Moroccan dude who studied economics. I live in Marrakech, I’ve got a job, and it’s been a year and a half now. It’s a good job , the salary is around 8,000 MAD. It’s a temporary job, but I have an issue with spending. I want to save money, but for some reason, even when I try to cook at home, eat healthy, no fast food, no new clothes just daily life things , and no going out (bars, trips, festivals with the boys), I cut all of that. But somehow, I still can’t save anything. By the 20th or 22nd of each month, I end up broke as hell , like not a single dirham left. And I just wonder each month: why does the same scenario keep happening? Even when I quit all “luxuries” , just eat, sleep, go to work, and go to the gym , I still end up broke.
I’ve tried saving apps. Withdrawing a large amount at once. Withdrawing small amounts. Sometimes, I even leave my wallet at home just to avoid buying anything when I’m outside. But as always, by the 20th, I’m broke. Why? How? Allahu a3lam.
It’s been a year and a half now, and it’s starting to annoy me. Especially knowing that I know people who earn 5,000 MAD or less a month, but they manage to save money. Some of them even bought motorbikes or cars. Some had vacations abroad.
If anyone has advice, please feel free to share it