u/Ambitious_Tooth6624

this is gonna sound kind of stupid but i’ve been noticing patterns in how i act? on the outside everything about me is fine i do well in school, people trust me, i don’t really get in trouble, i can get along with pretty much anyone if I need to. i know how to act depending on the situation so it’s not hard to keep that up. but there’s other stuff i don’t really talk about. like i lie about small things sometimes for no real reason, just because it’s easier or because i can. i’ll say what people want to hear even if i don’t mean it at all. i don’t really think about it, it just happens. i also notice i don’t react to things the way other people do. like if something happens that should probably bother me, i just dont care, i kind of move on straight away. same with other people if someone’s upset or something i know how i’m supposed to respond, but it feels more like following a script than actually feeling it. sometimes i’ll do things just to see what happens, even if there’s no real reason to. not anything huge, just small stuff that changes how a situation plays out. then i just do it, for fun. i also get bored really easily, especially with people, and when that happens i just switch off. like i can go from acting completely normal with someone to not really caring about them at all and it doesn’t feel like a big deal to me. so, i don’t know if this is just how some people are or if there’s actually something off about the way i am, lol? idk anymore, hope this makes sense

why do i highkey really want to kiss my rival but i hate him a lottt and want to choke him A LOT. but im not even gay or whatever???