Well, I'm finding it hard to let go of all the memories we had, but I can't stay on here. To do so would insure my destruction internally. Wherever you are, I hope that you're happy and loved, even if that isn't me. Nobody ever really got me like you did. You shared my weird quirks and understood my line of thinking in a way nobody else has or I'm afraid ever will.
Sorry I avoided you and self isolated myself during hard times. Sorry about how I disrespectfully and dismissively treated you also. You didn't deserve that. I wasn't ready then, and I know how much that hurt you. I saw it. Sorry. I truly am. I've worked on myself and have become better. I finally feel able to open myself up romantically. I wasn't ready for a relationship before. I know that know. Be assured if you want nothing to do with me, I have learned and will not make the same mistakes with others.
I'm still ever hopeful we'll get a chance to do things right, but those hopes have dwindled in the harsh face of time and reality. Still, uncharacteristically, my optimism seems to outpace my analytical thinking. I'm done hiding whether you want me or not, so, if it's a conversation you want, then a conversation you shall have with all respect given to you. Hope you'll accept my hug next time we meet haha.
I really miss you. I hope one day I'm able to show it. It's coming up on two years now since we really stopped being close. Idk these months seem to be hard on me now, when I think back on summer of two years ago, but knowing you even with our ups and downs meant a lot to me, and I now think changed me for the better. I'm proud of who I am these days. So, thanks for all that you have done for me over the years