20 weeks pregnant
Hi ladies, i seriously need some advice. So over the past couple of years I've had multiple miscarriages, and last year I had my precious daughter following TFMR. I found out I was pregnant again a few months later, and honestly was devastated as me and my husband just wernt mentally ready as we were grieving her. It's been a hard space for me to navigate, but after getting my clear 20 week scan I'm definitely feeling better about it. I started a new job at the end of Feb, a few weeks after getting the positive pregnancy test, and it was really good for me, I was getting out the house, and really enjoying socialising. I told myself I would wait until 20 weeks to tell my boss, as I didnt want to have to explain myself if anything went wrong, and none of them know my history. But now it's here, im petrified. Petrified of the reaction, petrified of it being a topic of conversation, petrified that I'm going to be treated differently. I'm self employed, and would probably feel more comfortable if I was employed, but another staff member is leaving at the end of may and instead of hiring new staff, I said I would cover a day.. I just cant shake the feeling everyone is going to be super pissed off, and that's just not a conversation I'm ready for.