I steal from my job every shift I work and I can't stop.
Using a throwaway account. This started like maybe a year ago. I (F22) work at a small restaurant. And by small, I mean small. As in there are only 4 employees working at a time, two cooks and two cashiers/expo people.
I work a few days a week and every morning, I am tasked with making brownies. Well, after I make them, when nobody is looking, I take one and put it in my bag. I like to do it when all the employees are there but aren't watching so I have to try and be super fast.
The thing is, the other employees, the cooks who are more "in charge" don't care if i take one. I could ask and they would say sure take one or two home. But idk, I just have to have the mini thrill of taking it without anyone noticing when I could be caught. If I don't take one, I feel like I am missing something.
I also don't even eat them anymore. I am sick of them. I give them to my siblings or my parents or something. But I just have to keep taking them. I feel like I am missing a thrill in my life, and this kinda gives it to me.
Maybe it's because I never really had a rebellious phase growing up? I've never snuck out, drank underage, or did a substances. I guess the most "rebellious" thing I've done was get a hidden tattoo for my 21st birthday, which was big for me coming out of my parents cultish religion where one belief is all tattoos are a sin. I am also a lesbian, which is just great considering when I tried to come out to my mom she flat out didn't believe me and said I was confused. Because I've always been such a "good girl" my whole life.
But anyways I haven't gone further to steal anything actually important like money or valuable stuff or anything. But what if this is the beginning of something like that? Is this a sign I'm going to become an actual thief? Anyways I just had to get this off my chest.