u/Altruistic_Fee_5560

im so tired of hearing from others that try to help with insomnia that you function basically the same with insomnia or that people who get 5 hours of sleep have the same gpa, or something like less chances of developing some disorder based on studies and I just cannot stand it. this year everything I have worked so hard to build has slipped. I genuinely feel like a zombie and no matter how many times I actually believe in this claim that I'll act the same and be fine it's only a temporary fix because I know damn well from experience it is far from true. my body aches and I cant keep attention for very long at all and my brain feels like mush. thats it, just wanted to share

hi guys!! basically throughout high school I had maintained a 3.95 (2 Bs, one sem in AP Bio and one sem in APUSH) but senior year my gpa dropped a ton with two Cs and multiple Bs across both semesters. For context, I was suffering 8 months of an illness that REMAINS undiagnosed but resembles a weaker form of long covid that still impacted me a lot, as well as severe insomnia from which my parents would not let me get help for, barring absolutely any path to medicine. in addition, the "resources" at my school did absolutely nothing to help. also you may see this next part as even more whiny but please hear me out. when healthy just a couple months before falling into these issues I took the SAT on little preparation and received a 1450. Pretty good score. After preparing months and months together, especially after these medical issues began knowing everything I could possibly know, drilled on everything and practice testing higher and higher (1570 level) after I hit this peak in performance on my SAT practices, my brain literally shut down I do not know how else to say it. The little adrenaline I used to practice and study was gone and I genuinely could not focus let alone remember anything much to keep up with the level of my classes and SAT was gone. I mean gone, and with all the extra work I put in I felt drunk on exam day and scored 10 points higher than my first attempt. I know this doesn't sound believable to people who haven't gone through insomnia or a medical situation like this but please believe me. anyway, only now have I become better and are my grades improving but much, much too late. I am wondering if I want to sophomore transfer out of my university (not sure yet, I just always want to have options in case I dont like how things are going) if these senior grades/SAT will hinder me even if I get a 3.9-4.0. Especially because many people say that soph transfers have too little college performance to judge so high school grades are highly considered. BTW, these senior grades have been in classes with the same high level AP/honors rigor in the preceding years, and I have brushed up on all content that I missed last semester that hindered this semester's progress and am prepared to do well on my AP exams. I know this is long, and please if you could be kind in your answers as this entire experience has been a lot for me. thank you and love u all!!