Need a female friend
I'm 19F. I hope this doesn't reach the wrong audience but I've been chronically depressed and haven't had friends since covid. I'm gonna let everything out cuz it's lowkey taking over my life. Eversince lockdown it just happened so that I haven't had any friends yet u could say I was kinda a nerd focused on studies not even minutely caring about forming new friendships after I got out of a toxic trio when I was in class 7/8ish. I just couldn't comprehend how it could be that bad but now I feel like the biggest loser ever for not having any friends. Because of the whole nerd thing, I was discouraged to go to family events and stuff like that now I can't go even if I want to cuz my mom doesn't like it and would rather have me stay at home than going to family events at least. I'm not close with my mom she kinda hates me. Ok so Ive boards (HSC 26) in less than 2 months and the isolation is driving me insane I cant focus on my studies without having breakdowns/crying every moment. Please don't take this in a wrong way but I'm not bored I feel like my minds slowly deforming now that pre exam period I don't even have any classes to keep me off these thoughts. I've been a loner for 6 whole years since covid and haven't ever considered even trying to make new friends but it's breaking me now
I need a hangout buddy very badly right now. I wouldn't ask u to go out everyday since I've exams but I'm hoping for a long-term friendship. Preferably someone in a same situation as me/haven't had luck with family/around my age and must be a girl. Don't dm me just for the sake of sympathizing, even if you already have friends, I just want us to be close friends and I don't wanna join ur circle, if me being a loner/having a bad relationship with fam isn't a big turn off for u and u are looking for a close friend it would get me out of a very bad situation pls consider