u/AlternativeMaybe8758

I was diagnosed with costo about 2 weeks ago, and i feel about none of rhe symptoms everyonw else does.

I dont have sharp pain, its not super painful to the point where i cant do anything, and it cannot be replicated with physical touch.

It just feels more like a dull ache below my sternum that I can easily shrug off after ive noticed it. It switches from my left to right side, but mainly my left, and I get short of breath from doing things like sweeping or running up stairs. I can also slightly feel some chest pain in the middle of my breasts up to my collar bone when I take deep breaths, but it really just feels like a mild cold.

could the doctors have misdiagnosed me??

This fear has completely overtaken my life. I cannot eat, i cannot peacefully sleep, i cannot enjoy any sort of activity, nor can i just simply exist. I am in a constant state of either unease or full blown panic all the time. Just a heads up, alot of this is fully devoid of logic and Im aware.

I cannot eat any sort of food, it doesnt matter if ive made it myself , if its completely certified allergen free, or if ive eated my whole life from childhood til now with zero issues, it results in panick , anxiety. It doesnt matter if I reassure myself with complete logic , the end is always the same. I absolutely love food, I eat everything i can. I used to eat out restaurants all the time, excited to try new foods, never had issues or close calls nor have I ever had to use my epi, and now i sleep with my epi pen out of pure fear and I feel as if my mouth and throat are itching constantly even if i havent eaten in a full 24 hours.

Every time I eat food one of the three things happens, I have the feeling of being winded, something starts itching, or I get a lump in my throat ( It never actually impacts my breathing), none of which actually persist after 10 mins and all end IMMENSE panic. It doesnt matter that nothing ends up happening because the next day I fear the same exact safe food as if i didnt safely consume it yesterday. When i read packages i dont go " okay it only says contains soy and milk, which are safe for me" i instead go "What if im allergic to soy and I dont know it " which usually ends up with me not eating anything at all.

I carry my epi pen with me on walks because im afraid my seasonal allergies might set me off, which has led me to no longer leave my house. Its ruined family outings, i dont eat out with them anymore , i dont go on walks, none of it. I mean this morning i panicked because i thought the very deodorant that ive worn everyday, would give me a reaction. Its completely unreasonable.

Its on my mind constantly,not a second goes by that im not worried about it. Nothing helps, gaming, tv, tiktok, drawing, talking. Nothing, often times I completely zone out into this blurry anxiety filled world while doing something.

Im honestly not sure how long i can keep this up, i want to go back to normal but I have to wait weeks for a doctors appointment, and finding a psychiatrist and then finding the payment for therapy , theres just so much that leads up to a month of work. Ive looked into Xolaire, but im afraid of the blood clot and cardiac risks just as much as this.

I havent been comfortable or content in months, I miss being happy. Please if anyone has dealt with anything similar.