I started working as a medical scribe last week and I honestly don’t know how to feel anymore. I was put into a very fast paced environment where we see around 40+ patients a day, and the patients themselves are pretty complicated. Everybody around me is extremely experienced, even the newer people had proper training before starting, while I basically only had online modules and then got thrown straight into this. My brain feels overloaded all day.
It’s also physically and mentally exhausting. Hours of standing, constantly moving, constantly meeting people, trying to keep up with conversations I barely understand. I feel very intimidated by the environment and honestly kind of depressed every time I go in because I feel so dumb and helpless.
I also feel like an inconvenience to my team. Every time I try to take initiative or ask to do more, I get shut down with “we’ll talk about it later” or “don’t worry about it right now,” which just leaves me even more confused about what I’m supposed to do.
And before anyone says “just quit,” I’m not going to. I really do want to grow and get better at this job. I just genuinely don’t know how people mentally survive this beginning stage or when it finally starts feeling less awful.