u/Alternative-Math-894

Just a doubt

Just a doubt

Im an 18 year old male, i am born hindu and i was an atheist for sometime when i was younger(12-14 maybe), i dont think that info is necessary but, i saw in some youtube video that its powerful to talk with god, or just basically open up to maa kali as she is a motherly character, she will care as a mother when we talk to her as a child, i wanted to talk with lord shiva because i just intuitively wanted to try speaking with him, and i just sat on my chair in my bedroom, i kind of just said “ i know ive never spoken with you before”, and immediately i just started tearing up, i couldnt stop myself..i didnt speak for about 10 minutes, to calm myself down, when i started speaking again i cried even more, i spoke through my crying.. ive felt like crying before but that was when i used to just think about lord shiva, this time i tried speaking with him and i uncontrollably cried..