Beginner working with bune
I translated this on Google, I hope it's understandable.
I'm from Guatemala and I've been working with Duke Bune of the Ars Goetia for about a month and a half. I started because my life has been a constant string of bad luck for a long time. I can't find decent work, my financial situation is precarious, I have a hard time connecting with people, and I feel like, no matter how hard I try, I always end up stuck, unable to move forward.
Before performing my first ritual, I spent several weeks studying. I researched the 72 demons of the Ars Goetia and, after reading descriptions, ranks, and abilities, I chose Bune because he was the one that best suited my needs: to get a good, stable job. I read PDFs of the Lesser Key of Solomon and S. Connolly's Daemonolatry Goetia, and I asked many questions about sigils, enns, protection, circles and triangles, how to set up a simple altar, offerings, and whether it was normal not to feel anything.
I've been physically exhausted. I go to bed early but wake up feeling very sleepy, I don't hear my alarms, and my mom has to wake me up. I've had chest tightness, difficulty breathing, a sudden loss of appetite, and days when all I want to do is sleep.
I'm posting this because I want to know if anyone has experienced something similar (silent rituals, significant energy depletion, many physical symptoms but little presence during the ritual).
Is this phase of "silence" and such marked fatigue normal when starting Bune?
Any advice for managing exhaustion while maintaining the practice?
Am I doing it right?
Did I do something wrong?
Below I've attached some photos of my altar, just in case, and also of both feathers I mentioned