Typing ambiguity
So, I've kind of been in this sub for a few years now, have really immersed myself and observed quite a lot about the theory and how it has evolved from when I first joined, I've recently have come across a lot of posts talking about certain experiences in which I couldn't help but secretly relate to with as well. For awhile now I've been pretty ambiguous as to what my type really was; (in most typology systems not just this one lol). Allegedly, this is supposed to be a common thing for Beta NFs, and I do remember a post of someone sending a video source of an ENTP explaining an INFJ's (or an IEI's) self-concept (Yes I undertand mbti and sociotypes are not the same don't come at me alr). Other sources (of which I can't remember at the top of my head) also explaining things relating to this strange subject of perception and being percieved for IEIs. Something about being clearer as to how exactly they "exist" or something. I have a bit of a strange relationship to the way other people reveal their impressions of me; often wildly varying. Maybe it's normal though for people to have different impressions, but perhaps to some extent I unconsciously try to blend in.
There were also other posts that talked something along the lines of emulating certain types; like trying to behave more like your supervisor's dual as a way to protect oneself from the scrutiny and pain from the PoLR function. I wasn't sure if I personally did this, but I think I've been prone to wanting to blend in a lot of times (I think this must be a really common thing for INFxs, moreso INFJs, though most of the people who know me a fair bit have generally concluded me to be generally an Ni dom, Fi/Fe, Ti/Te, is still unclear); and I've gotten to know a lot of people and friends who helped me cultivate a more solid self-understanding and growth.
None of this probably makes any sense and I'm basically just thinking out loud here, just also thinking about the kinds of people I seemed to have gotten along with, I have one very close ENFJ ESE friend, I found him to be fairly kind, albeit sometimes teasing me a bit too much, have gotten into a lot of fights and disagreements before due to a lot of misunderstandings and almost lost him. Some people type me ILI, both my parents are SEEs, so I don't really know if I'm their duals or if I had to cultivate myself in order to meet their subconscious expectations of me; I'm honestly maybe inclinded to say the latter because overtime I've started to gain more understanding about myself on how irritating SEE's stubborness and unwillingness to self-reflect are, but yet I also have interesting conversations with them sometimes; maybe because I've had a front-row seat to the SEE mentality.
I have an ENFP SEE friend as well, (pitted between that or xSFP, but he has a similar whimsy as ENFPs but aggression of SEEs), in first getting to know me we've also had our disagreements, well, they were mostly coming from me while he was just like "what?" lol, also commented that I had a pretty strong sense of loyalty, maybe that alone probably actually suggests EII, since the supervisor sometimes feels confused when the supervisee acts out. But it could also be sometimes a communication issue on my part (of which I've been working hard at improving).
I have another friend, an ENFJ EIE friend (although she used to type as an ISFP ESI.) , I think anyone who might know me fairly well knows that I don't exactly have the highest opinion of EIEs or most Betas, but I was kind of being a narrowminded ass about it and generalizing a few negative experiences as a general rule basically (and she also helped me realize that). Need to be maybe more mindful that there are also unhealthy depictions of some types too, which I feel like is a subject worth exploring more into as well and distinguishing it from the healthy ones. Though two types can be healthy it doesn't also necessarily mean they'll get along or be compatible (conflicting relations require a great degree of maturity for example).
Anyways, idk if anyone is gonna read all this up to this point, feel like maybe this is dragging on for a bit too much, but I've really learned a lot about how all the types are, and I'm still learning, there are probably a lot of facets of myself I'm personally struggling to come to terms with, but I also have to be more careful and discerning to figure out which of those facets are true and objective, vs. which of them are actually coming from people who just want to see me fail (most likely a low Te thing probably).
I'm grateful to have learned a lot from this community. I'm not always proud of some of my past takes but I'll be working better to improve that and my understanding.