Hey everyone,
I’ve posted a couple times about the passing of my beloved chocolate goldendoodle Meeko, but today marks two weeks now since I’ve said goodbye. It still feels raw and I still haven’t really come to terms with his passing. I know some have said you’ll get over it (which I’m sure will become more manageable in the future) but right now, I’m hurting just as much as I did when we said goodbye. It’s the little things that hurt my heart: his toys left here, the empty food bowls, his leash. The missing routines, the silence. Everywhere I go, I’m just constantly reminded of his absence. Just struggling with his loss. He was really my first pet dog so I’ve never experienced this before. I’ve always thought that pet loss wouldn’t be as hard as losing a human but boy was I wrong. I’ve grieved more for my dog than I have ever grieved before. And I don’t want that to make me sound bad, but I’ve come to accept that it’s not necessarily the species but grief is more painful for those who have been more present in our lives. And he was ever present. It just shows how much I loved him and how he loved me and I’m just so lonely now. I’ve had some ask if I’ll get a new dog and right now the answer is how can I? It wouldn’t be fair to meeko nor the new dog that I would constantly be comparing him to. He was far too important to me. I’m not missing having a dog, I’m missing MY dog. In time, yes I’m sure I will but right now it feels wrong to even think those thoughts, my heart is just too sore right now. I’m sorry for rambling, but it’s just been so difficult. I thank everyone who has sent messages, pet lovers truly are some of the most compassionate people I’ve encountered. I love you Meeko, always have and always will.