◢◤ 8 years without you, but forever in our hearts ❤️
Tim, the years go by, but my heart is still heavy today. It feels like only yesterday that I learned this terrible news. I hoped so many times that it wouldn't be this, that you had rebuilt your life elsewhere. That's what you deserved, to be happy the way you wanted. Nothing was more important than you, not even Avicii.
I never blamed you for your decision because that day you chose yourself! I think there would have been other solutions before this one, but neither I nor anyone else has experienced what you've been through or felt. Even though it hurts so much, I respect your choice. I ask your forgiveness for not understanding how intense your suffering was and for not being able to do anything to help you. I'm sorry if, at the time, we heard more of the artist than the man. I'm sorry that your boundaries weren't respected. It's still so sad that you're gone, but thank you so much for having existed, for being the extraordinary person we'll always remember, and for everything you gave us (I truly hope you made the most of every moment during your last two years)!
I wish I could give you so much in return. You were a wonderful man, and you deserved to be loved just as you were. You didn't need to do more or be someone else; you were enough. You were unique and authentic in this world so full of hypocrisy and where money is the priority. Thank you for bringing the light of your love into our darkness. Thank you for your incredible music that endures through time, just as you wished. No one else makes us feel music the way you do! You touched me to my very soul!
You always succeeded at everything you did. That's why I've believed in you since the first day I heard "Seek Bromance," and why Levels helped me through the hardest year of my life. I don't know what happens after death; you believed the mind was independent of the body. That's why I want to believe you're somewhere, and I hope you're free and fulfilled. I believe in you, beautiful soul, and I hope you never doubt yourself again, wherever you are. You weren't weak, you were different, neurodivergent (which is why I identify with you so much). You had a different way of seeing things; if only you had been allowed to adapt as you wanted and felt. You never gave up and always pushed your limits (perhaps too much, but we all make mistakes). You shouldn't have had to pay such a high price for them because you did what you felt was right in the face of expectations and your fears.
I wish I could go back eight years, stand before you, hold you in my arms, and tell you all this. I don't claim I would have changed anything, but I would have done my best to make you see yourself as I see you. I would have wanted to be there for you, to get to know you better, and to help you through thick and thin. I would have faced the darkness with you and for you, Tim. You were worth it, and nothing was more important than your wonderful, irresistible smile...