Post Highschool Blues,
19,
tomorrow it’ll be one year since I graduated, my friends are in college, I took a year off due to struggles, but ended up unemployed for months, and had to figure out car insurance so couldn’t go many places- mental health issues caught up ofc (saw Lotta death in my childhood)
and I don’t know, I just feel like a loser-
im constantly thinking to myself, “if I had tried even harder” “if I had gotten diagnosed earlier“ People I know are in universities, moving out of town, and even my graduation I don’t think I did too much for-
I didn’t have enough folks for a party, broke up With my prom date, didn’t immediately go for education, and my own family doesn’t show up for my events.
So I was in a depression slump for 4months, and spent March working, and April trying to get back on track with my family, then a friend cut me and everyone off.
I don’t really think I have anything to show for a year off either, am I just wasting my life?? I’m relatively successful artist but I’m just not where my peers are
I’m not the young woman I pictured myself being, anyone know how to get back on track? im leaving for a roadtrip for two weeks to try and find something of Myself before going to my next contract-
h e l p