The "We'll talk tommorow" - dating someone who wants to 'help' but is helping make things worse..
Hi, so firstly I have the tools so to speak and have lived with bpd since I was a teen (in my 30s now). I know myself well enough and cope alone enough to appreciate most people won't help me the way I can. However, in relationships I expect mutual desire to work with another's needs to find balance and 'talk things out' it helps most people process.
So I hate this part of dating - someone new claims to want to know and understand bpd for future and then the first sign of conflict is a shut down and the 'we will talk tomorrow' text shuts it down. It is fine to want that but first acknowledge the other person's feelings without fixing and share theirs, otherwise this tells me the precedent for future disagreement is simply - delay and avoid.
I wish I could have faith in such statement but I'm only 1 month into this relationship and it's not the first thing I have noticed they overlook me on and despite the person allegedly exploring bpd and listening to content I shared and they requested, it's like ok I can calm myself down now but in 2 months if this is the response and I'm more attached - hello darkness my old friend.
I'm writing here because I just need to express in a space that understands - we work on ourselves all the time, we see detail in things, we can help people but we can't help someone to be someone who sees things that they are avoiding looking at. That 'view' should never be the sight of us ❤️
I won't call it quits yet but I am going to keep distance and get back into my dbt workbook so that my head won't spiral outta control. If things don't improve then it is a case of accepting and letting go when I don't want to but have to.
Peace and love to you all 💜