u/Albireo_9989

I feel so jealous when someone is getting complimented, in front of me, without them being there and for doing things I can do, it feels like they're being glazed, and loved all around which is something I want and Even if i do get this still feels that way, it's the same feeling when you're a guy and a girl keeps talking obsessively about another guy in front of you, describing every detail, now I don't know how to redirect these emotions to a better place, the only way I can describe them is, being angry with the person, and this is amplified when they're already popular, and when I've failed to be close to them, even if I did manage to be close to them that jealousy kind of stays there And part of me feels as if I'm trying to show myself that I have more value because I hang out with these "cool" popular people, but as you can see being aware of all of this makes me feel worse because well why would you ever want your value to be defined by how popular the people you hang out with are, it's almost like being a sycophant even if you're not but deep down you might not even like the person you're just trying to feel good about yourself, I just want to deal with these feelings of jealousy in a healthy way, be it someone I know or not, younger than me or not, did something that I can do or not, getting praised or not