I am currently in a emotionally distress because during my whole two years of being with this guy all i ever got was getting blocked. I was pretty much a normal girl who dealt with post break up scenes in a good way. In a good way and not a selfish way meaning whenever my exes wanted me I would be there for them with a boundary and whenever I or them start talking with someone new I would cut contact fully.
But this guy, he turned me into a psycho just like the ones you see in movies. During the initial stage i remember he saying his ex took n number of pills and send photo to him while he sleeping to get his attention and he couldn't comprehend it and laughed it off and I joined along him saying aye enth penn. Now i realise I was wrong.
Rn I having these episodes where I badly wish something really bad happens to me so that he finally cares. We broke up but I keep going to him for comfort. I have tried everything going out both with friends and alone, staying over at my friends, actively distracting myself but at the end of the day when I hit the bed the whole weight hits me. And I can bear all this during my normal time but it gets so fucking intense and bad and uncontrollable nearing my periods.